wishing_awayx

wishing_awayx @ 2005-06-07T15:20:00

2005-06-07T19:18:05Z

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wishing_awayx @ 2005-06-04T23:26:00

2005-06-05T03:24:54Z

tonight was cool, except now brian is like totally ignoring me. cool right? yea haha.

so today i woke up early and laura picked my mom and i up and we met up with rachel,frankie,bonnie,mike,morgan,zuks and justin. we had such a good time at the concert! me especially. =) it was just one amazing time and i've never ever felt so important in my entire life. =) details if you ask me haha.

.... WOW <3

wishing_awayx @ 2005-06-03T13:41:00

2005-06-03T17:43:20Z

TONIGHT IS PROM! i just got done writing this whole big ass thing in Clays yearbook and I feel alot better about everything now. PHEW. anyways, i'm not doing too bad right now. i'm trying to get my grades up, and the banquet is pretty soon for FFA so i get installed as a secretary soon hehe. so life is amazing!

i think i might actually have a crush. wow. i haven't felt like that in a while haha. like a little schoolgirl, being all shy and shit - yea that's me right now. whenever he talks to me i blush and i remember like every single word he says to me. awesome isn't it? =) he asked me to sign his yearbook in the one class we have together and he asked for my screename, i was like "yay! you're so cute!" and he looked at me all weird, but he calls me beautiful every single day. wow. what am i getting myself into?! haha. it's summer soon. i'm going to party it the hell up. I CAN'T WAIT.

for now i'm listening to music, and at 2:00 i'm going to take a shower and start getting ready. wish me luck with tonight.. it's going to be probably one of the best proms ever, considering Laura is going to be there with me. WOOHOO!

wishing_awayx @ 2005-05-30T07:39:00

2005-05-30T11:37:24Z

CLAY COMES HOME FROM VACATION TODAY!! <3
that's all i have to say =D

wishing_awayx @ 2005-05-27T15:19:00

2005-05-27T19:22:17Z

state convention was tuesday, wednesday and thursday.. SO MUCH FUN. especially that dance - except it got cancelled early because some girl broke her ankle GRR. but it was alot of fun, alot of bonding time with alot of different people. my brothers retiring address made me cry really bad, he did such a good job and i'm so proud of him. our parli pro team got first which consists of; me,clay,kristen,ashley and jess. so we're going to nationals in kentucky in october. it was so so much fun i wish i never had to end.

today was pretty cool, i went to half of first period and then my nature in lit class took a trip to sandy hook, i got sunburn haha. it was alot of fun though.. jess & i were laughing histerically on the bus and i don't even know what it was about haha. but then we got back to school and really didn't want to be there haha.

tonight is going to be really fun. matt is picking me up at 4:30 and we're going to hang out at the mall. we're getting soo close it's soo great, he's the best friend a girl could ever ask for. the 2005 allentown FFA officer team is going to AMAZING.

wishing_awayx @ 2005-05-19T19:36:00

2005-05-19T23:37:41Z

so life is pretty much going okay. clay and i broke up, and thats the only thing that confusing me. honestly, i miss him and want him back - but this is good for now. brian asked me to prom! =) woo hoo! me,him,laura,frankie and some other people are getting a limo, it's going to be soo much fun! tomorrow i'm going to get a dress at the mall hehe and probably then the bonfire if it doesnt rain.

chinese food is here.. mmm..
hahaha. update tomorrow [?]

haven't updated in a while..

2005-04-14T00:26:11Z

life is totally overwhelming right now. so many things have been going on and i've had like absolutley no time to myself. yesterday was mine and clay's 6 monther, it feels good to have someone say they love me and mean it. the FFA is totally taking me over (not saying that's a bad thing), because i love it. on the 30th i leave for oklahoma til may 8th and i fricking miss the battle of the bands because they cancelled it this friday. GR! but candice is coming over friday <3 and we're going to the mall & having a sleepover. =) i can't wait to see my best friend. tomorrow after school i have land judging, then going to the farm & wawa then off to the FFA officer meeting haha. man o man. anyway, i'm guna get going now.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY GAB, I MISS YOU & LOVE YOU.

wishing_awayx @ 2005-02-19T21:08:00

2005-02-20T02:16:41Z

WOW. so today i woke up around 8:00, went to Walmart with mom to get some official dress to go to Leslie Applegate's grave tomorrow with the FFA.. bought a little more stuff then we had expected to haha. then we went over to the postoffice to drop some stuff off, it's so fun to put the mall in the thingy and watch it drop haha. i was so excited! then mom and i went to ricks.. OMG it was the new store- BEAUTIFUL. i got a new carhartt =] and alot of other stuff.. mom was soo close to buying a new $900 saddle hehe. then we went on over to the farm, Grant came so i had to hold Reagen while she got her feet done.. =\ she was ootching alot so.. owie.

i came home and i took a shower and headed on over to Lara's.. we took some pictures in her room haha it was SOO fun. we went on over to TGIF cause we couldn't see a movie, no passes allowed and we didn't have enough money =\ but we had so much fun. god i love her.. who am i trying to kid? i love all my friends SO much, they're great. lara understands every little thing about me - it's nuts. and we both make the same funny fish faces while taking pictures, unexpectidly. =]

tomorrow my brother and i are picking up ryan and we're going to leslie applegates grave with the FFA, then probably going out for breakfast with everybody.. then i'm going to Clay and sleeping over hehe i haven't seen him all weekend! i love him. =]

wishing_awayx @ 2005-02-18T22:06:00

2005-02-19T03:12:58Z

tonight was such an amazing night =] i went to the mall with candice, we got to catch up on alot of stuff since i haven't seen her in like AGES. we met ashley and angela there, it was really cool for candice to finally meet angela. just walking around with them was.. god, so much fun! we got lost out in the parking lot everyone looking at us thinking there was something seriouslly wrong with us because of how much Red Bull we drank haha (btw, it wasn't as nasty as candice said it was.. :P) we walked over to the movies and saw Boogeyman.. it was kinda scary, really confusing and had a really good point to it. all in all everything tonight was just PERFECT.

tomorrow i'm going to the farm bright and early to ride, and to help char around the farm for a little bit, the coming home and going to the mall and movies.. again.. with LARA!!! <33.. hehe it's guna be SO great. we're going to try on dresses and be sluts for a few hours haha. oh yes, go us! (but no one but lara and i are going to see the final results).

i love my friends SO much.

wishing_awayx @ 2005-02-14T15:17:00

2005-02-14T20:19:47Z

thinking about getting rid of livejournal..
unless some people try to convince me otherwise.

wishing_awayx @ 2005-02-12T08:53:00

2005-02-12T13:58:13Z

Happy 4 Monther to Me & Clay!!

wishing_awayx @ 2005-01-31T11:38:00

2005-01-31T16:43:20Z

well, my weekend was okay. friday clay & i sorta got into this spat that i really don't wana talk about so we stopped talking to each other for a while. friday night i went to the mall with LARA! like as we orginally planned only i didn't sleepover. while at the mall i texted clay and we're good now. better than ever =]. saturday morning i went to go see Jimmy Bob and Toblio, they were all cold from the damn snow. but still the bestest boys in the whole entire universe. after that i came home, showered, got pretty and went to my aunt anns for baby joeys 2nd birthday party. i talked to my aunt janet like we used to, i miss her - alot. then i went to clays to help him work his moms dinner, wasn't feeling too good. at like 12:00 we layed down on his bed and fell asleep =] it was great! until i started feeling not-so-good again. i got up and went into his bathroom and i just fainted. i'm not guna get into detail all i'm guna say is that i'm fine now. i'm going to get blood tests done sometime this week. then the rest of my weekend was kinda shot thru hell and i didn't get to do anything else which sucks. =[ but anyways, tomorrow in school starts the new semester, hopefully i like all my classes/teachers/classmates. probably not tho ahha. cyaa.

wishing_awayx @ 2005-01-28T14:02:00

2005-01-28T19:02:29Z

i'm
so
sorry
[ <|3 ]

wishing_awayx @ 2005-01-25T06:26:00

2005-01-25T11:28:00Z

i can't wait to get home from school today..
i feel like such a bad person for having to put
my dog outside in his house =[ it's too cold!
and the snow on the ground is even colder. my
poor bo bo.. =[ *cries*

-_ if looks could kill . . .
y o u ' d b e a m u r d e r e r

wishing_awayx @ 2005-01-24T21:06:00

2005-01-25T02:11:02Z

hmm well i haven't been this happy in ages. clayton and i are so in love. this weekend was so awesomely cool. friday my aunt ann and baby joey came over, it was pretty cool. clayton slept over. then on saturday he went home and i didn't get to see him for the rest of the day. sunday started my depressed/emo mood and i was about to do something really stupid :\ but the love of my life saved me. he showed up at my house even when i told him not to come over, and he caught me histerical. he helped me, TONS. sunday night i ended up sleeping over his house because today was a snowday. hmm.. umm.. we went out in the snow today!! with honey girl =] it was so so so much fun. anyways, tomorrows back to school and i have finals this week, grr. good point: schools 1/2 over.

i love you clay.

wishing_awayx @ 2005-01-16T17:15:00

2005-01-16T22:22:13Z

hmm, well i haven't updated in a while. right this moment i'm sitting here with the love of my life, Clayton. tomorrow we don't have school but i have a shitload of projects to do and alot to help Clayton with. they're calling for snowfall tonight. =D

Occasional light snow...especially after midnight. Snow accumulation of 1 to 2 inches. Lows in the mid 20s. North winds 10 to 15 mph.

how cool! snow the day we don't have school. yay! sounds good to me.

+ later dude.

wishing_awayx @ 2004-12-30T11:19:00

2004-12-30T16:25:39Z

haha well don't you just hate when you try to be nice to someone, try so hard to have them just NOT hate you because you don't want anyone to? yea well try doing it with someone obviouslly won't ever give 2 shits about you, doesn't care if in a second your dead. ha. it's great isn't it? someone who used to be like one of your really good friends and now, they just - blow you off, being nice to you and talking behind your back, scratch that- talking SHIT about you behind your back and don't lie about it. i know what you're doing. your dumb if you think i don't. thanks for being such a great friend, go stab your other friends in the back.

I'M DONE TRYING TO BE NICE.
BECAUSE IT DOES INDEED GIVE PEOPLE THE CHANCE TO STEP
ALL OVER ME.

wishing_awayx @ 2004-12-29T08:51:00

2004-12-29T14:00:07Z

alright so last night, clay met trix,kibble and brittany. holy shit i think he had a perdy good time if you ask me. ;-] anyways, we got there around noontime and just hung out for a while, then we got the mill pizza which was some good shit, then we went back to jeff's house with michelle and did some shit. Next, off to the mall, the lights were so god damn bright haha. then we went back to jeffs and met the whole crew there, i think that's when clay had REAL fun. then his parents picked us up in the RV, the new one 'La Palma' which is by the way Pamela in english. =] then i slept over clay's which was really fun =] i love my baby so so much!!!!

seaside = happiness.

wishing_awayx @ 2004-12-23T12:50:00

2004-12-23T17:58:11Z

so, today was a good day. the last day of school and now we're on winter break. my friends are such amazing people it's so great. =] i'm getting extremly close to so many people. i saw dom this week =] it totally rocked and i'm so happy that i finally saw candice on saturday, i missed her so much[ i love you candice, best friends = forever ]. right now i'm listening to 98 degrees cause i'm in a weird mood. tomorrow's christmas eve and i finally get to see my dad, i'm so scared that when i see him i'm going to cry because of how much i missed him. tomorrow night i get to see everyone =] james,david & paul and all of my family it's wow.. i love christmas time. and christmas morning i'm going over to clays house and celebrating there. i was talking to MEGHAN MACKIE about 10 minutes ago, i miss her so much it's insane. & laurens new pets and the cutest things i've ever seen, she's so lucky. anyways, HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO EVERYONE, I HOPE THEIR GREAT AND YOU GET TO SPEND THEM WITH THE PEOPLE WHO MEAN THE MOST TO YOU. =]

>> i love you Clay.

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!!

2004-12-14T01:36:26Z

ahhh!! well, last night made me finally realize that Christmas was right around the corner! clay and his family took me to pennslyvania to see a light show =] it was soo much fun i loved every single moment of it. my favorite part was the floating snowflakes AHH! and the little oriental girls dad pushing her stoller into a tree, that was cool too! clay and i laughed our ass off, god it was great..haha. ohh boy, today in school was great too, i'm really getting into the christmas spirit. i changed my profile, and my icon and everything to christmasy stuff =D GOD I LOVE THIS!! I LOVE THE CHRISTMAS TIME!

wishing_awayx @ 2004-12-04T22:39:00

2004-12-05T03:45:30Z

hmmm, well last night was the snowball dance =] it was a good time.. clay and i went together and we hung out with some cool peoples there. then today clay came over and we went to the farm and rode, my little cowboy tehe. then i came home and clay left, and i went to my step-sisters for my nephews birthday party. it was pretty fun. had a couple of drinks hehe which yes, i was supervised but i did get 1/2 drunk lol. then i came home and got ready and went ice skating with laura and tim, it was so fun =] laura and i didn't fall, but i almost did and i threatened a group of guys and told them that if they didn't get off the wall so i couldn't hang onto it, i would punch them in their faces - so they laughed and wouldn't leave me alone. tim was being a huge show off, i needed his assistance numerous times haha. laura and i had a nice talk around the fire =] and the girl sitting next to us thought we were probably high or drunk [well, that's kinda true considering i was ONLY 1/2 DRUNK haha]. anyways, tonight was sooo amazing and i can't wait to hang out with 2 of my favorite people in the whole entire world, laura and tim. i love you guys soo much. "laura......." "what?" "LAURA!!!!!!!!, DEER!" hahaha sorry i couldn't have warned you any quicker ;]

i knew it the moment you walked into the door <33

2004-11-20T22:47:19Z

lemme tell you, this weekend was amazing. friday at 2:00 michelles brother drove us back to michelles house - my girl was really upset so i became a bad influence on her ;] hehe. it was funny, we went to the mall and saw some people, misha was there, so was will - which was cool. we went to bed after talking to our babies on the telephone. then today we woke up around 11ish, got ready and chris + sean came over, of course sean had to leave early =[ he's so cool! both sean + chris and soooo funny, even though we had ALOT of awkward silence, i could see me becoming friends with both of them. we watched some movies and just hung out for a while, then i had to leave =[.

ALLENTOWN HIGH SCHOOL LAND JUDGING TEAM 2004
IS GOING TO OKLAHOMA IN MAY FOR NATIONAL
COMPETITION. 1RST PLACE IN STATES, SO EXCITED.
<< can't wait, i love you girls <333 >>

I LOVE YOU CLAY.
NO MATTER WHAT.

wishing_awayx @ 2004-11-18T22:21:00

2004-11-19T03:25:37Z

hmm well today was state competition for land judging, it was pretty intresting if you ask me - met alot of new people. everybody thinks we did pretty good, including mr.roszel. i think there was a slight hint in the sentence he said 'if we do to go nationals, we're going to have to practice alot more than we did' .. kristen & i think it had to do with something good, hopefully. & there was an ffa meeting tonight, karis + kyle broke up =[ he was being an ass to her so i guess he deserves it, even though he did it to her - WTF? & alot is going on with my friends, i wish i could just end all of their pain and suffering.

tomorrow i have to return back to all of my classes =[ boo. and then i'm going over michelles, sleeping over and on saturday i'm meeting the famous chris.

<33 very tired.
goodnight

p.s. results from land judging come in tomorrow afternoon,
pray for good results!

p.p.s i miss lara

p.p.p.s i love you clay

wishing_awayx @ 2004-11-17T21:34:00

2004-11-18T02:37:34Z

do you ever just get that feeling in the pit of your stomach that you were meant to live for one reason, just for one.. when nothing else feels right but this one thing just all of a sudden makes everything else seem - PERFECT? wow, that's me right now. i went from crying hysterically to having the biggest smile on my face.

my friends are the most amazing people in the whole entire world, without them i wouldn't be who i am - and i know who i am now. =] and i know what i want out of life- which is to simply be happy, and i know who i want to spend my life with and be happy with.

wow, this feeling is amazing. =]
FFA States is tomorrow, kinda nervous
cause i can't get slope down too well,
but i'm guna be in an amazing mood, so
everything will turn out just fine.hehe.

I LOVE YOU CLAYTON. <33 FOREVER.

wishing_awayx @ 2004-11-15T05:39:00

2004-11-15T10:45:03Z

i'm sorry . . . .

so sorry for making you feel like you did something wrong, because you didn't - you never do. i guess i get angry easy because i'm just so afraid of loosing you i try to keep a close grip on you but it turns out to just screw everything up. when we're together, everythings perfect.. nothing can ruin a second that we spend with each other. i love you, i'm in love with you and i'm not afraid to say it and i don't care who knows it. thankyou for putting up with my shit and just baring with me through everything, i'll never forget everything you did for me.

i love you so so so so so so so so so so much Clay.

- f o r e v e r <3 -